Perspective from the stroller

Time: 11am

Coffee: Serena Organic brewed at home

This morning on our daily walk, Nyah began to get hungry half way back to the car... She was sucking furiously on her hand and would make little dissatisfied grunts when they didn't produce the desired food! As we got closer to the parking lot, I could see the car and kept assuring her, now beginning to get even more distressed, that we were almost there.. And the thought hit me, (once again, I know its not a 'new revelation' but it felt that way to me this morning) how often I have found myself in this place with God.. I am complaining, or feeling like He is not hearing me, not seeing my need. And the present circumstances are so encompassing that I can't hear Him assuring me that He is in control and He knows what the future holds... He sees our future, he sees what is to come and how He will meet our needs... I am reminded of the week I first met my now husband... Nothing had transpired between us, although I felt the attraction and interest. I was a frustrated single 29 year old and felt that I had had enough 'let downs' or 'carrots dangled in front of me' when it came to guys. I told God, tearfully, the night before Tim was to leave and I thought I'd never see him again, that I'd had it! No more holding things in front of me that I 'can't have', be it dreams or potential husbands! I decided I would not hope anymore, and accept 'reality' that I'd be single forever. Little did I know, the very next day, his feelings for me were revealed, and he sent his first text message to me the following day, which turned into hundreds, and then hours on the phone, and then weekend visits, and then a missions trip to India, then a Valelntine's Day proposal. And then, just eight months after our first meeting, we were married!!! I can't forget how I know He perfectly orchestrated those amazing circumstances, especially when I feel I'm in need and the sky feels closed. He's not seeing what we are seeing... and its just an opportunity for us to trust.

Listening to:

hillsong+united/take+all+of+me+lisbon+portugal+paris+france

You broke the night like the sun
And healed my heart with Your great love
Any trouble I couldn't bear
You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin
And takes the weight of the world

I love You
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me
With You i walk through the valleys
You gave Your only Son for me
Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything